
Buzz Kill
July 12, 2010◊
I can’t get high
Or should I say
Nothing gets me high
Anymore
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Alcohol helps me not care
But only for a few hours
I never feel anything good
I only feel numb
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Weed doesn’t do it either
It may help me get away for a while
But upon returning i find
The world hasn’t gone anywhere
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Stress pills are a complete joke
yeah they give me a lift
But only up to the Factory approved level
Slowly destroying the body
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The hard stuff
Screw that garbage
Even the wandering blind can see
A shovel helps dig six feet down
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The T.V
I don’t want enslavement
Babies who see it before they speak
Die of cancer on an assembly line
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Love?
Ahh, the reason Why
But i’ve never had trouble with Why
It’s How i can’t get my head around
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The wood shop sounds good
But the only reason i’m in there
Is because I can’t afford a contractor
So it’s really only more work
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The hobbies couldn’t do it either
The many hours & dollars of work
Over these past years
Add up to Zero success
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The days of celebration
Not even close
Either no one participates
Or i’m busy with someone’s problems
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Music is the closest so far
Mixed with an open road
Driving 85 mile per hour
Singing as loud as i want
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But that only lasts until some jackass
blocks the fast lane while passing a truck
doing the Factory approved speed limit
For what seems like rest of Time
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I don’t want my fire to be big
I don’t care if it warms anyone
I don’t need it to last forever
I just want it not to be pissed on
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It’s been put out so many times now
I can’t feel any heat
Even if there is plenty of tinder left
I’m having a hard time finding my flint
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embers, warm but not glowing…
((((LOVE YOU))))))
I am always up for a flint hunt. “I love to camp, I love to camp, I love to camp.” You name the place and I will be there to look for my fire while you locate your flint.
Hugs and love to you polar.
sigh….made me sad… 😦 hope things are better??
Ah, when ones heart hurts, it is indeed hard to find that spark.
Yet it resides deep within each of us, when we realize we can refuse to continue to be broken, after all…
Hi Anne,
Yes, good point. Conditioned responses are their own evil.