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The Clutch

October 26, 2007

Again the Creature has come.

Standing before me licking its teeth.

A Wraith of a Griffin.

Lean of sinew.

Rigid and sharp.

Quills not feathers.

Malicious not loyal.

Colored in flame.

Smelling of acid.

Bony spined arms

Uncoiling from the Mantis-like chest.

Ending each in a claw of nine unbending talons.

Long fingers like the shards of lightning struck wood.

Click…click…clicking as they sniff out anxiety.

My anxiety.

From yet another failed expectation.

The failed expectation that calls to this demon.

This Wraith to which I am bound.

Tied with a chain too short.

Never have I evaded its grasp.

Condemned always to its ill embrace.

With a single hungry claw

The Wraith captures the whole of my gut.

I stand trembling in its grasp.

Living now moment to moment

As the closing grip spews vitriol from me.

The talons move closer together

Slowly shredding my insides.

Anxiety, though, does not render like flesh.

And so collapses toward the center of itself…

No!…Myself.

Forming a black sphere of Doubt, Need, & Panic.

Tighter and tighter does the fell Griffin squeeze.

Blacker and purer does the sphere become.

Until I gestate with Feebleness and Regret.

I fear my stress reaved body

Will not survive the birth.

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3 comments

  1. I read this the other day and came back to read it again.


  2. Thank you for the comment. I have this strange tendency to Expect things NOT to change. The above is what happens to me when they DO. I have always been static and inflexible. And none the wiser for it. I even need to plan my changes. I just haven’t learned to “Let It Go”.


  3. Dear White Bear, tonight i have sat and read most of your writing…underneath the enjoyment of your finely wrought words i find myself wanting to reach out and place my hands on all your sore spots…to ease a bit of the pain (my interpretation) but i know i can’t and i know i don’t have to, you are doing a fine job yourself! i just want you to know that i am here and i care…god speed on your journey, love gail



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